Follow Up Ultrasound

Before the ultrasound: The day has finally arrived. We get to make sure that Peanut has a healthy heartbeat. I cannot even begin to describe how I am feeling about this. I am so nervous I think I could pass out. I even pulled out my doppler last night just to see if by chance I could catch a heartbeat. Of course, at only 7 weeks, it is way too early. I have been praying non-stop and have recruited my family to send all the good juju they possibly can! Why did I make the appointment at 1:00...should have done it first thing! My heart is pounding and I am on the verge of tears just thinking about it all! But, I am just going to have faith things are fine. Everyone else seems to think things are fine, so I need to jump on board.


After: WOO-HOO!!!!!!!!!!! We have a heartbeat! 151 beats per minute to be exact. Baby was measuring at 7w1d, so a day ahead of last week's measurements. Thank God. I am so relieved and so thankful. Still a nervous wreck since I saw a heartbeat twice last time. But, we are heading in the right direction. Let's keep on growing little Peanut!!

Little peanut, who looks like a tadpole!

Telling the Families

Well, this time it was much different. We didn't have any fun t-shirts or a production planned. We have been overly cautious with this pregnancy and just wanted to share the news casually. I really wanted to maybe wait until our 2nd ultrasound to make sure there was a heartbeat, but I knew that I wanted the support of our parents in the event that something went wrong. So, we were going to maybe spill the beans on Christmas Eve/Christmas if the opportunity arose, but all day at Dan and Kim's, it just never seemed like the right time.

We went to my parents' house all day and all evening on Christmas and again, it just never came out...until the VERY end of the night :). Mom was going to give me back the bottle of wine I had brought, but I just casually said that I wouldn't be able to drink it for awhile, so she could keep it. Both, Mom and Lindsay just kind of looked at me and then smiled. I think they both pretty much suspected it, but just needed the confirmation. Dad and Mom both gave me a huge hug and it felt so good to tell them!

As for Darin's family, Kim came over to hang out with Jameson the day after Christmas and we told her that day! It was nice to be able to tell her, as I had wanted to all day on Christmas. She was so happy for us and told us she would keep it a secret until we were ready to spill the beans. Darin ended up calling Derek and Nicole to tell them the news and now everyone knew! It felt great to share it with family, but that was it - we want to keep it quiet from everyone else for quite awhile! Hoping to make it to 14 weeks before announcing. We shall see.

1st (Surprise) Ultrasound!

After my September loss, my doctor scheduled an appointment with Maternal Fetal Medicine in Peoria to discuss protocol for future pregnancies since I had experienced two back to back losses. This was supposed to be a pre-conception appointment, but Baby Weber had other plans! As soon as I found out the pregnancy was progressing, I called the nurse in Peoria and asked what we should do. They encouraged us to come to the appointment anyway and treat it almost as if I was not pregnant. I was very relieved to hear that they still wanted to meet with us, as I figured maybe they could shed some light on everything. We had a very informative meeting with the nurse, who went over my history and talked about a few things. As we were wrapping up, she mentioned something about getting set up for the ultrasound. I immediately started sweating and my heart started pounding! I was NOT mentally prepared to have an ultrasound. Most people would be ecstatic, but I was mentally and emotionally scarred from my last ultrasound where I saw a baby with no beating heart. Plus, I was only about 5 weeks pregnant and I knew that sometimes you can't even see a baby at that point, so I did not want to FREAK out if they didn't see one.

But, I just kind of went with the flow and as we walked back to the room, I could seriously feel my heart beating in my brain. As we waited for the techs and the doctor, I looked around the room in an effort to distract me from the painful thoughts racing through my head. When I looked at the wallpaper, I realized that it was the same border that my Mom and Dad have in their bedroom. For some reason, that completely made me feel better! I was still nervous as heck, but felt some silly comfort in wallpaper! The 2 techs AND the doctor came in and started the ultrasound. My heart started jumping in my chest when no one was saying anything. My mind instantly went to that dark place and I thought the worst. But, then the doctor told us that he saw a sac and a fetal pole and was just trying to determine if the heartbeat they were getting was mine or the baby's! I laughed and said it was most likely mine since I could feel it beating in every corner of my body. He finally made the determination that they did see a heartbeat, but that it most likely had just started beating and there was no way we would be able to measure it or hear it. I felt better, but still was scared! He advised that we schedule an appointment with Dr. Santiago in 7-10 days to make sure we could see a healthy heartbeat on this little peanut. Baby was measuring 5w6d, so official due date is August 15.

The next 10 days are going to seem like 10 years!!

Peanut's very first picture!

Rainbow Baby

"Rainbow Babies" are the understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. When a rainbow appears, it does not mean that the storm never happened or that the family is not still dealing with its aftermath. What it means is that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and the clouds. Storm clouds may still loom over but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of color, energy, and much needed hope.

To our rainbow baby - you will provide much comfort and beauty after many months of storms. I will do everything in my power to make sure you are healthy and safe as you develop and grow. We cannot wait to meet you and hold you in our arms as you open your eyes and look at this world for the first time.




"Be thou the rainbow in the storms of life. The evening beam that smiles the clouds away, and tints tomorrow with prophetic ray." ~ Lord Byron


"Be a rainbow in someone else's cloud." ~ Maya Angelou

Can I Just Have a "Normal" Pregnancy?

Well, apparently, things cannot go easy for me. We had a slight scare shortly after getting a positive test...actually, the very next morning! Thought for sure that I was experiencing an early loss and begged the doctor to not have to do the barrage of blood tests only to be devastated again. But, he insisted I get the blood tests every two days to see if my HCG levels were rising. Sure enough, they almost tripled within 2 days and then more than doubled over the next two days. At that point, they called it a viable pregnancy and scheduled my 8 week ultrasound. I was over the moon - shocked, excited and utterly terrified! But, I was beginning to have faith that maybe this little peanut was going to be a fighter! Grow baby, grow!!!!

We're Having a Baby!

We are pregnant! I had been feeling slightly off all day on December 3. What really did it was my superhuman sense of smell, plus some other tell tale signs that I was all too familiar with. Late afternoon at work that day, I decided I would stop and get a test on the way home. I waited and waited to take it, as I did not want to be disappointed. Finally, about 10:00PM, I could not wait any longer and buckled. It instantly turned positive and I burst into tears. The very first thing I did was say a prayer, which included me begging God to not take this baby from me. Not exactly like in the commercials, but I was so happy, yet so very scared. I left the test sitting by Darin's sink in the bathroom and was just going to let him discover it when he brushed his teeth. Of course, he didn't go into the bathroom when he came upstairs, so I finally had to tell him to go look in the bathroom! We were both excited, but cautiously excited. Let the adventure begin...again!